Well, it's the day after Valentine's Day and I must say it was NOT the worst, but it will definitely go down in "The Worst Valentine's Day" Hall of Fame.
Of course, in a previous blog, Late Night Blogg'n, I mentioned how I had an incident happen to me and my relationship was over, blah..blah..blah! Well, like any average woman, I called myself letting this man back into my life, thinking things would be different, possibly an improvement, you know..the usual! Well, you know it did...for how long? TuH.. two weeks? I guess...And of course, the peak had to be on Valentine's Day! WHY?? I have no clue.
So, basically, I went out of town this weekend (forgetting it was Valentine's Day weekend) and I ended up NOT celebrating it with my so-called boyfriend, our first time. So, of course throughout the day we sent little cute messages and "I miss you, wish I was with you," text messages, until the sun went down.
I get a phone call, "hello?" No answer. "HelloOoOO..?" No answer. I hang my phone up. I get another phone call, "Hello.." I hear Brandy's, "Human," playing in the background, than, I hear his voice. And he's telling this story about someone's sex-capade...well it happened to be his. (Shaking my head). Now, should I wonder and assume and accuse? NoOoOO...of course not Chell. "It was a joke!" Forget all that, I must have "STUPID" written all over my face!!
And when he tried to explain himself, I was just amazed at how one can really sit there and lie to me. Why? I heard everything, there was no point in lying to cover yourself up. I couldn't even figure out what kind of liar he was,
pathological or
habitual?
Now, if you click on the two links for the types of liars, you will read that pathological states, "A pathological liar is often goal-oriented (i.e., lying is focused - it is done to get one's way)." And I say this because he could be a pathological liar by lying because he doesn't want to lose me. But, "habitual"/compulsive liar reads, "Lying is their normal and reflexive way of responding to questions." Has he been lying to me this whole time? So, which one could he possibly be?
I can no longer endure this so-called "LOVE" he claims he has for me. I can no longer be on the short side of the stick. I can't! No more! So, since I do not TRUST him and can no longer believe what he says, my life must go on...without him! And like I said before, I will be content with it.
So, Happy Valentine's Day to me! *giggle* So, just thought I should share my 2009 V-Day, although 2008 was much better! I enjoyed it and my day was full of happiness, no disappointments. I guess my 2008 V-day was too good, I couldn't have another one two years in a row. *laugh*
Now, I know in the previous blog I said I didn't want to use the statement, "A broken heart is also an open heart," because I felt I wasn't "in love." But, he ALWAYS told me he loved me, but if he loved me, why would he lie to me?? A question for the birds...
But, as usual, my late night blogg'n. I must go now! G'nite Bloggers....